interactiverobert

I’m not done yet. I realized after my last post that, if I was going to complain, and that’s what it was, I needed to be better balanced in my complaint. My complaint was my persistent feelings of loneliness and sadness. The post was about how their impact has diminished. And complaining. My acknowledgement of this is an improvement. Another thing I’ve noticed is my diminished ego, and my aversion to doing things that feed it. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve got an ego and I’m often oblivious to its workings, it’s just that now I’m more aware, and I think it has less of an influence on me than it has in the past. For example, during previous travel, I had a little too much to drink and was mindlessly talking. At some point I noticed that what I was saying I judged to be egocentric. I was tooting my own horn, or I was getting ready to. I was talking to make myself sound better. I stopped mid sentence and froze. I didn’t say another word. The group probably thought I had blown a fuse. I gu...

Time for another diary entry. I've been feeling on edge for the better part of a year. I've been experiencing a sort of low grade depression. Unlike previous experiences, I've been feeling this one, but it hasn't clouded my perception and isn't accompanied by high frustration or despair. Previously, these feelings would make me look at my life, my relationships, work, etc., to see if I could identify what was causing my low mood. The result would inevitably be something I couldn't change without completely disrupting my life, and so I'd remain stagnant. I suppose that's the main difference: now if I feel a little down and I can attribute it to some aspect of my life, I can do something about it if I wish, or I can look at other aspects and gain a little contentment. How is this different? I suppose now I feel empowered, whereas before I felt at the mercy of systems of control I'd felt I had no choice but to accept. The main system of control that...

From The Guardian... "When was the last time you really stopped running around and just stood still? At a time when work, endless emails and a million distractions vie for our attention, the idea of taking time to just be present is more popular than ever." https://www.clinicalfloatation.com/the-guardian-suffer-from-anxiety-try-a-sensory-deprivation-tank

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